Wednesday, December 29, 2010

An update

Now that the year is coming to an end, I figured it's time for an update after the end of my NYC trip a week and a half ago. I'm sitting here at night thinking so much about so many things. My life is honestly a mess right now... I seem to only be adding more stress with the choices I make and what I choose to focus on.

Here's a rundown of all the things on my mind:
a.) A man that I've been in love with since I was fourteen years old. I've been proposed to twice in my life by him and regret not accepting his proposals. He loves me with all of his heart but he's scared to be with me. Because, he knows, in his heart of hearts, that if he ever was to give his love to me... I could very well be the end of his world. So, in turn, he chooses to date men that he has very little interest in and live life knowing that he won't be hurt by the men he doesn't love. He's perfect. But he always runs away from me in the end.

b.) My ex-boyfriend.. that I still have feelings for. We dated for a couple of years and then broke up recently. Lately we've been spending more time together, which I enjoy, but we act as if we're still together.

c.) My DUI - woohoo for lawyer's costs, court fines, probation, etc. Who knows what's going to happen with this one?

d.) The opportunity to move to Chicago and restart my life. I'd be with extended family (the ones I absolutely love to pieces). This also comes with leaving the friends I've had the longest.. my father was a Commanding Officer in the Navy - we moved often. I've known everyone here for at least 4 years, if not, more. I was so used to changing friends every year and a half or two.

e.) Modeling - it's just as stressful as ever.

f.) Lack of motivation in school and other places in my life

g.) Sugar Daddies - It's a great thrill and I enjoy older men in the first place. However, it's so time consuming and exhausting. A few new pots are starting to show up - woohoo!

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I have a lot of decisions and choices to make. My mind is fried. Goodnight.


I hope you're all enjoying your holidays!

Sebastian

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Monday, December 20, 2010

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Looking forward to talking to you all there!

Sunday, December 19, 2010

I Can Have Another You in a Minute

"You must not know about me, you must not know about me. I can have another you in a minute. Matter of fact, he'll be here in a minute, baby. You must not know about me, you must not know about me, I can have another you by tomorrow. So, don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable."

I am the luckiest son of a bitch in the world. Shortly after being ditched by NYCSD - I decided to ditch him. Forever. So, instead, I was invited out by an older gentleman today. I told him I was busy and he asked what my schedule was like tonight - I told him I had nothing planned. We met at 11:20 at a beautiful restaurant inside a boutique hotel. It was a Japanese place. More sake and a nice NYC strip steak with onion strings. Delicious. Oh, and guess what, we were talking about airports and our funny stories - here's one he shared with me. You ALL will love this.
American Express Centurion Card

I'm sure we all know how important this card is. And what it means. Right? Well, I held it in my hand at the end of dinner today! That's right. I held it!!!! He was talking about how when he went to the airport one time the scanner went off and kept going off. TSA asked if he has anything metal, he of course didn't think of his wallet. The TSA asked if maybe he had a wallet or something on him. He gave the man his wallet, and then realized that his card is made of Titanium. When I put water on Buddha yesterday at Megu for good luck... I certainly got it!!! He's personally selecting an apartment for me to move into over by the Time Warner Building in NYC, he's also paying for ALL my expenses, all my shopping, and all my travel. We discussed this at dinner tonight. He has had one sugar baby before out in California. However, it didn't work out. But during the time they were together he provided him an apartment, luxury vehicle, allowance, etc. This is classified to me as the "you can have whatever you like" daddy. His name here will be known as "Centurion." Perfect, yes?

We had met through SA back in September and exchanged emails back and forth but didn't have the chance to meet up. So, I of course e-mail him today after what occurred. He replied half an hour later. I replied half an hour after that. Then he asked for my phone number, which I gladly provided because I was pretty desperate for something new. All of this ended in a phone call inviting me to Columbus Circle at The Shops at Time Warner. We ate and he gave me $100 for a cab home :)

Here's what I get out of our first date. Any apartment I want. He's already searching for one for me - in Midtown West! Soon, I'll be living a life of shopping, eating, traveling and sleeping. Go me! Wish me luck. How do I make sure I don't lose him? I'm not worried about it but it's something I'm scared of. I've bagged such a great guy in under an hour.

Sebastian

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Update: Biggest Let Down in the Sugary World of Sebastian

So, as I sit here in my hotel room, looking out over the large window that gives me a beautiful view of Tribeca... I'm also very disappointed. After running an hour late to dinner last night, due to the subway changing their trains to express and having to reroute myself to get to my destination (I'm not the best at subways in the first place), I arrived to Megu. NYCSD was not pleased, but I felt as if I calmed him down and that my apology was appropriate. It's a beautiful restaurant and you'll be able to hear all about my experience last night shortly.. however, I feel that this update is more important.

After dinner last night, NYCSD and I walked around and went on a history walk and talked for about 45 minutes. We walked through City Hall park and smoked a few cigarettes talking about so many different things. The original news houses. George Washington's pew at the church. Hangings at City Hall Park. Where they film Ugly Betty. The most expensive building in the world. The creme de la creme of cafes back in the 60's and 70's. How Tribeca quickly became such a hot spot when it was nothing before. I enjoyed this so very much because he's so knowledgeable about the city. I have a big thing for history - I love NYC for it's history because it's the center of all of America's history. We parted ways and I was given tickets to meet with him at the Museum of Modern Arts in the early afternoon - he said he'd call. I arranged a wake-up call for 10 and 10:30. I then turned in after feeding my goldfish and went to bed.

I awoke to my wakeup calls and then went back to sleep when I had saw that I had not yet received a call. I then awoke again at 1pm. I texted, called and then texted and called again. No answers, period. Today was supposed to be my MOMA and shopping day. I didn't get it either. To have come here and enjoyed such a fine experience initially and to be let down on my last day here isn't acceptable. Much like my late arrival wasn't acceptable to one of the best restaurants in NYC last night. However, I had a very understandable reason for this. Upon realizing that MOMA closes at 5:30 today... I sent NYCSD a text.

"I appreciate your generosity during my time here. However, if you didn't show up today because of my tardiness the other night - I do apologize and completely understand. I hope your day is going well."

The one thing that I disliked the most, indeed wasn't going shopping or to the MOMA... but the fact that I was told I would receive a call from him about when to meet up today. When I didn't receive that call, it became a problem for me. Do not bring me to NYC, promise me these things, and then leave me last minute with no reason or explanation. Do not drop off the Earth and not let me know that you're not able to get together and have me wait on you the way I have.

So, instead of shopping and going and enjoying my day. I have instead been in my room with the occasional cigarette break in front of the hotel. No worries though, I'll be turning this day around with one of my friend's Isabella tonight - I'll treat her to dinner and drinks which I'll charge to the room. I was previously given permission to do so. He's responsible for the expenses I incur here because he brought me here. The goal was to pamper me and lavish me with gifts and beautiful dinners. Clearly this goal has not been met. I'll then go out to Isabella's friend's going away party before he leaves the city to work in the overseas modeling market.

For now, I won't talk to NYCSD until he comes back to me - I do hope he will. But if he doesn't there's no use crying over spilled applesauce. He's such a kind man and he's very smart. These are things that I enjoy about him. I enjoy spending time with him and both of us being entertained. But, then again, this isn't acceptable.

Going home tomorrow, I depart in the evening. I'm ready for this to be over with. And so, the search for some new sugar begins. This flame extinguished itself so quickly but I hope that it ignites once again.

Sebastian

Friday, December 17, 2010

The Hotel

UPDATED AND PICTURES ARE NOW ADDED

Note: Pictures to come.

I arrived in NYC last night after a day of travel hell. However, I made it just fine and was reimbursed for my travel expenses that I incurred on my way to the hotel from the airport - plus a nice bonus! NYCSD has been working all day so I got some time to go out and play... after being out all night until 7am. I had a vegan caesar salad at Sacred Chow with a mimosa. Other than that, I've been laying around all day waiting to get together with one of my good friends up here before I go to Megu for a lovely dinner! Sake! Sake! Sake! Did I mention, sake?!?!

I'll make sure to edit this post when I get in tonight... I'm not quite sure how long I'll be out. But I do know that I am exhausted. Shopping tomorrow!

Sebastian
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The Night Begins

After a issue with the subway, I arrived to dinner exactly fifty minutes late. NYCSD had allowed everyone that had reservations to skip in front of us until my arrival. When I arrived I was given the most terrible look I have ever been given - a look of disappointment. I sat down at the bar and was asked to order a drink. I ordered the Jade Candy cocktail - if you go to Megu, do not order this. Instead, order the Blessing Cocktail. I tried some of NYCSD's and it was the best cocktail I have ever enjoyed. Don't get me wrong, the Jade Candy was nice... but it just wasn't something I would order again.

We then left Hell and went to Heaven. Megu is designed in such a way that when you enter you're taken through Hell, Purgatory and then you finally arrive in Heaven. The bar is designed to be hell with Japanese punk-techno music. It's beautiful, two walls are rolls of kimono fabric encased in glass. It's beautiful. You then enter Purgatory, which isn't anything special, instead you look into the dining room through a charcoal coloured glass and see Heaven. However, in Purgatory you once enjoyed your appetizers. Now, this is not the case. You're then led down stairs to Heaven and finally enjoy your appetizers and meal.



I allowed Alex to order for me - the menu was rather complex and offered so many different items. I started off with a five sashimi sampler. I didn't take pictures of my food or at all because I would have felt terribly tacky. However, my food arrived in a square serving dish that was illuminated just like this on a bed of ice. The sashimi was carefully arranged on a palm leaf which was further decorated with two carrot florets and some other pretties. The fish here is flown in every day, fresh from Japan! They only order from the best fisheries as well, of course.



The sashimi was then followed by kobe beef skewed on bamboo. This again, is not a picture I took - which would explain the ugly hands holding the meal. My meal however arrived in the same way, the order in which they were arranged was different though. From left to right I had a wonderful "gempei" miso kobe beef skewer (this is the second from the left in the picture). I enjoyed it so much that I ate all of it before moving onto the rest. Which was a terrible mistake, I wish I had saved it for last. I then ate different pieces as I moved along throughout this course. The next one I tasted was the black sesame (the first one on the left) This tasted very much like a flower. It was such a pretty taste. The third was the soy garlic (the last one from the left) Which tied as my first place skewer. The gempei miso and soy garlic were by far the best. The last was soy&wasabi. This was my least favourite. The wasabi is spicy but also has a sweetness to it. I enjoyed the wasabi a lot. This is because it's freshly prepared by grating real wasabi on actual shark skin. I didn't enjoy this skewer much because the flavour was so intense until you chewed it all together and then you start to enjoy it. I don't enjoy working so much to enjoy my food.


Megu is known for their grean tea crepes. It's about 25 crepes all stacked on top of each other carefully. I ordered the sweet five dessert platter for myself at NYCSD's behest. I was treated to several desserts on one plate. This included: green tea crepes, vanilla sorbet? (I don't know how to explain this.. but it was like frozen vanilla milk - not as creamy as ice cream), mango sorbet, mango coconut something, chocolate and bitter orange something, chocolate truffles and creme puffs! The creme puffs, chocolate truffles (they literally evaporated in my mouth), vanilla sorbet,  mango sorbet were my favourites. The green tea crepes had too strong of a taste. The dessert sample is also a great value. You get standard sized desserts for a little bit more than what one single dessert would cost you.

We also enjoyed a fine bottle of Sake during our meal. It was beautiful. It had an initial licorice taste which then faded away into florals. It tasted like a beautiful memory. I don't recall the name. But I would definitely have it again.

Dinner total: Over $700.00 - which is normal when he takes me out to eat.

We ended dinner, enjoyed a cigarette and walked around for a while. If you read my most current post, you'll find out exactly what happened next.

Sebastian

Thursday, December 16, 2010

And off I go!


Finally boarding my flight after delays and reroutes. I'll let you all know when I arrive in NYC. Lite dinner tonight since NYCSD has work tomorrow and must turn in early.. meaning I have all night and most of the day to do whatever I would like. :) I'm thinking I'll wake up to a mimosa tomorrow morning ;)

Sebastian

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Oh, the joy of pre-shopping

'Tis the season to make myself and others jolly. 

It's that time of year again which means it's time to get last-minute Christmas shopping done! Which would, to me at least, mean ALL of it. Thankfully I have great sugar to give people the gifts they deserve this year. ;) I didn't do too terrible last Christmas, though. I bought my best friend a beautiful, vintage, unopened, VERY amber bottle of Shalimar perfume from the 1950's. I think she deserves a pair of Christian Louboutis this year, right? What girl doesn't?

I'm up really later, it's now 3:51 am at the time of writing this update. So, I thought I'd share some more of my life with you and the trip that I leave for tomorrow (I'm so excited about it!) I have a terrible addiction to shopping.. so terrible that I literally spend most hours of my day shopping online for things I want. Here are some of the things I'll be returning home with for myself and others.

1.) Burberry Prorsum wide-military boots. These have been on my mind since I laid eyes on them while browsing online. These beauties will allow me to breathe once again. I'm a sucker for a beautiful pair of boots!

2.) Givenchy sandals. I own no animal print at all currently in my collection of clothes. I figured it would be a nice piece to add

3.) I saw these just recently on luisaviaroma.com. Someone, please tell me that these will absolutely be the best purchase ever!

4.) I'm pretty positive that my followers aren't males and that they might not have ever seen these before. They're made by Rick Owens and they're a beautiful pair of mens wedged boots. I'm going to be super tall! AH! Four inches taller to be exact.


5.) Barney's shearling fingeless gloves. I'll be subjected to a terrible amount of cold while waltzing around shopping my heart out - I'll definitely need to keep my fingers warm. First stop when I arrive, Barneys NYC, most definitely!

6.) Mom and Dad... you never ever bought me the only thing I ever asked for as a gift for Christmas every year. So, I'll be getting it gifted to me by someone else. This is a fur at located at Barney's in NYC. Isn't it beautiful?
7.) Barney's cashmere cap. For those times that I don't want a dead animal on top of my head.


8.) A Givenchy bag that I've been eying for quite some time now. I have the biggest obsession with Givenchy bags. They're literally the one thing that I always go for when shopping. If I don't have a new Givenchy bag in my hands - my trip was a failure for the day.

9.) I need all of your help on this one! I'm not a girl so I have nothing to do with women's fashions... However, the friend that I'll be buying these for does not have a pair of beautiful shoes in her wardrobe. EVERY woman should have a pair of Christian Louboutins. Do you all think that she'll love these? Please let me know :)





There's plenty more of what I'll be buying and I'll keep you all updated right here. I'll be posting another time and some more items that I'll be purchasing tomorrow. I want to try to find a new bag for my mother for Christmas. I really need to get to bed so that I can get some healthy rest in tonight. I have a very busy day when I wake up... :( 

Have a great night everyone,

Sebastian


Monday, December 13, 2010

Scandalous

What a beautiful way to start off another day. Wishing I could sleep forever.

After working a show a few nights ago, I drove home after two drinks and was then arrested after speeding >10 miles over the speed limit. Which is very untrue - I was driving 59 in a 50, thank you very much. ;) The reason for my arrest was the suspicion of driving under the influence of alcohol (DUI). So, now I have two journeys! Secure an amazing sugar daddy AND pay my unexpected expenses. Surely, after shopping and selling a majority of what is purchased for me this coming weekend, I'll be able to afford to pay for all of this. What a great way to allocate sugar, yes? However, I wish I could keep the beautiful carry-alls and fantastic shoes that I'll have for a little bit :(

I've learned my lesson. I'll never drive again after any amount of drinking. I've had enough of this whole situation already.


I hope you're all doing well!

Sebastian

Thursday, December 9, 2010

The Beginning of a New Way of Life

Bonjour! Welcome to the diary of my sugar daddy adventures!

As far as I know.. and as far as I have been told - I am the first Male Sugar Baby Blog! I'm so glad to be here and I hope that you all enjoy my blog as much as I have enjoyed yours over the past few months. I'm not very educated on arranging matters with my Pots and I'm hoping that you'll all help me on my way.

I suppose I should introduce myself.. I would prefer for you all to refer to me as Sebastian, in order to maintain my privacy. At the time of writing this, I am 18 years old and recently embarked on my journey to find a Sugar Daddy. I work as a traveling fashion/editorial model and frequently travel between NYC, Chicago and Miami.

So, in order to give you a background on my experiences so far, I suppose I should also introduce you to my men and how I met them. For their privacy as well, I will refer to number one as Dave (he's now extinct, but was my maiden voyage) and number two will be called NYCSD (the most promising guy I have ever come across. His bank account is nearing the one-hundred million mark.)

Dave is a large shareholder in Berkshire Hathaway and travels very often, he's a travel daddy and always makes sure to invite me on trips with him. We met up for dinner at a fairly nice restaurant earlier this year and we got along very well, however, I'm positive that we weren't what the other was looking for. We still keep in touch which is nice.

NYCSD has been a very strange experience. We met when I was in town casting for NYC fashion week. I was browsing at Versace and he approached me then invited me out to dinner. I immediately took this as a joke - I've never been approached by ANYBODY in such a way, ever. However, being interested I exchanged my contact information and we then parted ways. After emailing back and forth talking about what I enjoy and telling me a little bit about himself, I received a reservation for Gramercy Tavern from opentable.com for the following day. I arrived a few minutes early to be on time. However, he was running late. I asked the Maiter D' to contact him and ask if he would be arriving soon. Moments later I received a message from him while sitting at my table, my heart dropped, I thought that he would no longer be able to make it. Luckily, I was instead told to make myself as comfortable as I could and order a drink and that he would arrive within twenty-five minutes.

Dinner was absolutely beautiful! I had already done my research before coming to one of the finest restaurants in NYC. I started off with a foie-gras custard (this was too rich for my palate so I barely touched it), this was then followed by the rack of lamb which was paired with a lovely bottle of wine. Apparently, if you have money in NYC nobody cares about your age. ;-) After finishing off our bottle of wine, wine was then ordered by the glass. Dinner was rather large, it was followed by an assortment from eight cheeses from around the world all paired with wines - we basically had a course from a cheese master about how to eat the cheeses and which one to start/end with. This was followed by dessert, a complimentary dessert, another complimentary dessert and finally the cheque. Gramercy Tavern was most definitely the finest restaurant I have ever been to and the service was astounding! The night was finished with another drink after which I went home. 

The following day I was asked if I'd like to go shopping. At this point I was in disbelief, but after the previous night's tab I didn't doubt that we would indeed be shopping. We went to Jeffrey NYC and I browsed and selected a Givenchy bag and a pair of Balenciaga High-Tops. We then had lunch, which was followed by dinner and a town-car that he called to take us to the Tribeca Grand for a round of drinks. I was sent home via towncar (he wanted to make sure I'd arrive home safe, even though I insisted on taking the subway) and I retired for the night. 

We spent two more days together and I then left NYC a few days later since school started - he was out of town working so we didn't get another chance to spend time together before I left. I swear this man is crazy about me and absolutely loves my company. Over the course of a month I received over 15 messages asking when I would return to the city so that we could get together. Everything from "you must be tired of that life there" to "i'm in the mood to spoil." 

Long story short, I have a room booked and paid for at the Tribeca Grand this coming weekend as well as a paid round-trip flight, which is only proper, right? He's such a gentleman and I'm looking forward to locking him in and hopefully attaining an allowance from him. I've really lucked out so much! I couldn't be more happy or appreciative.


I hope to hear all about your Sugar Baby experiences and I'm looking forward to talking and exchanging stories with all of you.

I'll most likely update again before I leave for next weekend and then most likely every night while I'm there.

Chat with you later,

Sebastian